I keep writing and erasing this post..for some reason so Neeza can you please get me started?

Talk about your usual, Here ill write some topics

NAKED TIME!=D

How much you like him
Thoughts on life, questions..
How awesome Edward Cullen is.
Recent events
Inspiring thoughts
Neeza ;P
School
Love life
food
Worries
Random thoughts

I am worried about how sexist some guys are and living with someone like that is really ARGHH. Sometimes they black mail you and you have no choice but to sit there and listen but NO your hear me NO I will not just sit there and watch all these horrid things happening! There is a ladies party…we get to talk and have fun. Ohhh yea and mothers day is coming…YAY! Remember what happened last year with my cell phone…he still tried to call me but I blocked him…cause I’M SO OVER HIM ok. I don’t care about people who are careless about what other people do in life and they want your 100% attention when they can’t even understand whats going on in your life!Ok….so now thats out fo my system…what can we talk about now Neeza?

That made no sense, but since im not sure if you want to talk about it or not, i wont try to push you.
Anyways i think we should talk about how i want some raspberrys now that ive seen your text color.=]

Ashmeen: I want my REVENGE you hear me my REVENGE….I want to use my tae kwon do lessons on him and make him CRY to his momma…which will never happen but…at least I would get my revenge. Rasberries don’t taste that great Neeza…Now what?

Raspberries are yummy. except for when you see a bug in your pile of blueberries. Then its creepy=]
But yeah, your still not over it?

Ashmeen: I don’t like him anymore I like someone else Neeza….I like strawberries better

Ehh..Strawberries are alright. Are you alright?

Ashmeen: I think I’m going to have a break down soon……

WHY?!!

Ashmeen: I’m trying to forget everything like nothing is happening but acsually everything is getting worse….I don’t even know what I’m writing anymore….I miss….. “Stac”

Okay..now you really lost me..is this about that friend of yours on msn that calls you and talks to you? And why aren’t you responding to my “Whats wrong” on msn?

No Neeza! I’m talking about the guy I KNOW but now wish I DIDn’t? I have no clue…… I miss “Stac”

*sigh* Honestly Ashmeen, if your really feeling down about nothing happening, why dont you take charge? Say something. But first you have to get rid of your negativity about thinking your nothing. wow, that was a short sentence, but really , it was long.

Ashmeen: There is a reason I don’t believe in love Neeza….isn’t it true…mybe a guy who was blind would like me….

Negativity. You know ashmeen, you really should stop that. Its not helping you at ALL

Ashmeen: I can stop but really my head can’t stop questioning myself…

Well why is your head thinking of that?=D There has to be some reason why your head is thinking negativiely=]

Ashmeen:…we can’t really discuss that on this blog…so…but there is a reason

Oh righttttttttttttttttttttt..well Ashmeen you gotta stop basing your thoughts(negativity) on stuff in the past!

Ashmeen: Well I can’t forget anything easily….and I don’t think I can forget what happened before..cause now I don’t think I’ll remeber what happened everytime I think of the word “love”

Well i never said forget..im saying, try to move on. it wont help if you keep lingering on it in your daily life. That wont do good in the long run right?!!=D It’s weird but today, ive been typing “lingering” a lot. ive never tried to type that.

Ashmeen: I do forget about it but whenever i get my hopes up they come back down because it gets stuck in my head, thats why I tried to avoid him:(

why do they come back down? And ashmeen, avoiding is a big no-no=D

Ashmeen: What if I just end up crushed again???

Well then you’ll grab one of those cartoon air pumps, attach it to your ear and pump air back into your body, until you can stand upright again. Like Sylvester, everytime he gets squashed trying to chase Tweety, he gets back up using those cartoon air pumps.=D
Short form: You get back up.=]

Ashmeen: yea after three months of non stop beaking down….there is a REASON I don’t believe in love!

If you didnt believ in love you wouldnt like stac=D- Wow someone caught a fish that was supposedly extinct!cool. Ooops. anyways, yea, you break down, you cry, you lock yourself up, but then your alright. Just like Sylvester, it took a while to pump air back into his body.=D

Ashmeen: If real life was like that I’d have nothing to worry about…anyways I’m tired of talking about “love” I hate that word “love” who ever made up that word was blind…. there is no such thing as “love” it’s just the blindness people fall into….it catches them and traps them in a complicated phase…